||prude, jude, nude
i'm not feeling quite myself right now and so what do i do? i get on livejournal, that's what. i just watched the movie "following" and i liked it very much. i recently got my wisdom teeth out and so i am under the influence of vicodin and naproxen, and i'm not too unhappy about that. i was recently called a "bitchy melodramatic whore" and i take great pride in that. in all actuality, i'm far from a whore. in my ripe, old age, i've yet to kiss a boy (or girl) and i'm quite familiar with the term "sexual frustration."
let me tell you my philosophy on sexuality.
i'm not straight. i'm not gay, either, nor am i bi-sexual.
you can't control who you fall in love with.
i've liked girls and boys.
though i am usually attracted to boys, i have liked girls, and i'm open to any relationship, regardless of gender or any other superficial factors.
i once loved (and i'm just tossing the word around) this girl with a hole in her face and she smoked camels. i loved this boy who loved himself and other boys and girls and was the very first person to really break my heart. once, a boy and i went out, not alone, listened to morrissey and he hated right-wing politics. so do i.
i tried on prom dresses with my best friend and i look like a little boy.
the other night, my friends and i took trampoline pictures and i realized just how much i look like a little boy.
i act like it's funny but it's not, because i'm neither little nor a boy. and it upsets me to some extent, but at least i'm not fat.
i really don't like some christians, and i'm just not sorry if that upsets you. that doesn't mean i hate all christians, but i don't understand them at all.
please don't think less of me for that statement.
i'm out of it. so i'm going to go to bed.